Why I Must Be a Writer

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I must be a writer because I am not good at anything else.

The problem with being a writer is that everything becomes a potential storyline. The narrative in my head is constant. The constant narrative gets in the way of everything. I just had to stop doing an errand to write this so I wouldn’t lose it.  Write it down, or it will be gone!

I like to work alone. I like people around me, but please don’t talk to me. I am okay with music or television going in the background because I am skilled at tuning out everything…if you don’t try to engage with me. When you do that, you bring me back to the immediate ‘now’ and the story that was beautifully playing in my head fades like a dream upon waking.

I have a low tolerance for office politics, small talk, social graces, your ego, your lack of respect for my time. Consequently, I am not always aware when I don’t respect your time, your ego, social graces, small talk, or office politics.

I keep trying to escape my mental/physiological/psychological makeup and wish I could not be an INTJ, and I have been successfully deficient in reaching that goal.

As soon as people start consistently making sense, I might try working in an office again.

Let’s hope this writing bit works out!


n.b. Toward full disclosure, I must admit, I am working parttime until I make my first million dollars.

Originally posted July 2019. Reposted Feb 2020.


Just Write, Idiot.

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I set up this site because I had so much to say. I thought the only barrier to being a compensated writer was to just write, and publish, then the money would start to flow.

I have sooo much wisdom to pass along. I am so insightful, that anyone who reads what I write would be immediately grateful, and moved, and evolved.

After setting this website up, I suddenly couldn’t just do it. I wrote for a few months and then it seemed I couldn’t really remember what it was that was so profound that I had to say.

It also became a bit nervous-making to put my thoughts on the interweb for anyone to read! Mon dieu.

This bit of writing is my baby step to get back into the habit of sharing and just writing, idiot.



If Only We Didn’t Need to Eat

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I just watched What’s with Wheat?1 I recommend it for others who may be sensitive to food to share with those in their lives who are unsympathetic.

Many of the health issues that our consumption of wheat is causing were detailed in this documentary.

I just recently had an episode of episcleritis2 and uveitis3. Both of these conditions for me can be caused by eating a trigger food…mostly gluten-containing food. Sometimes, they are also triggered by any processed grain.

I started a combination of the Autoimmune Inflammatory Protocol Diet and a high-alkaline diet. For eight months, I did a good job of following both very strictly. I lost 30 pounds and my inflammatory markers (c-reactive protein) decreased to 1 from 4.5. I felt fantastic.

Over the next eight months, I slowly lost that strictness. As a treat to myself for doing so well, I would occasionally have bread or a brownie or rice. My treats become more frequent and I have no one to blame but myself over my recent episode. I had cupcakes and cheesecake. They were free of gluten, genetically modified ingredients, and were organic. Didn’t matter. Something in them disagreed with my system. Once I give into the sugar craving, it is very difficult to remove it from the diet again.

It seems that we may have been sold a bill of good by various industry-specific organizations4 about what is considered a healthful diet. It seems we are creating another dust bowl, except it is in our food chain.

Those who have the money invested in producing our food would need to modify all aspects of their food production. This would be expensive, and not a fast transition. I think it is unlikely to happen.

1IMDB: htt ps://




Additional Reading


I Knew I Was Royalty

My Journey with EPP

July 14, 2019

If you have watched the movie, The Madness of King George, you are familiar with the medical condition porphyria. There are eight types of porphyria, which have varying levels of severity.

I knew [hoped] I was related to royalty somehow, and I eventually got the medical diagnosis to ‘prove’ it. Even though my porphyria is not the same type as King George III, and secondly, I have found no familial connection to the King in my genealogy research, I am still hoping to find the link someday.

I have Erythropoietic protoporphyria (EPP),

I did not get a diagnosis of EPP until I was in my mid-30s.

I endured ridicule at school when I missed classes and came in with a parent’s note that I was allergic to the sun. I endured ridicule from friends when I had to sit in the shade or under towels with my skin burning after I would give in to going to the community pool. My hands swelled to the point that I could not bend my wrists. My breath hurt my skin because it was too hot. Family vacations were in Florida two weeks every Summer. There are pictures of me with a swollen face, and feet and hands hidden under beach towels. At night I would wrap my hands and feet in wet washcloths and sit in front of a fan.

My family doctor told my parents that I was a hypochondriac when I was about 8 years old. After that determination by the doctor, I had to be seriously ill before my parents considered me ill with anything. Consequently, I suffered in silence many times. Only when I had visible edema from EPP would they acknowledge that something was wrong. Yes, I am a bit bitter.

When I was in my mid-30s, one day I spent 15 minutes out in the sun and when I went inside, my hands hurt. I was determined to find out what the problem was after so many years of being told it was nothing.

It took me a week of internet searching (late-1990s). I started with sun poisoning, heat stroke. and finally found it. Erythropoietic protoporphyria.

The symptoms fit mine exactly. I went to the doctor with print outs from the American Porphyria Association. The doctor took the papers out of the exam room to take copies and came back in saying it was unlikely I had it because it was so rare.

I broke down and started crying. I asked if the tests were really expensive and that’s why she would not order them. She said no, they weren’t expensive. I asked her to please order the tests so I could see what they found. I was not imagining the pain and swelling, something was wrong.

She ordered the tests. Once the results were back, she called me and apologized. She had never had a patient with this problem and, in fact, had never heard of the condition.

Today, I stay out of the sun as much as possible. When I drive, I wear protective gloves by Coolibar. I also wear pants and tops available from that company.

I have tried two different treatments. One was Lumitene. It worked, but I was on such a high dose, my skin was a very unnatural orangey-yellow. I also tried astaxanthin and that worked as well. Both take several months to start working. I stopped taking them when I was working with my doctor to reduce general inflammation by removing food and supplements from my diet. I have not resumed either supplement, but instead practice sun avoidance.

The impact of having EPP is hard to understand by people who don’t suffer from it. Taking walks at break time with co-workers, running for exercise, going to the lake on holidays, and site seeing have all become very problematic. My porphyrin levels continue to increase as does my sensitivity. I can have a reaction when walking from my car to the store, which can be less than 100 feet.

I am hoping awareness is greater now than when I was looking for a diagnosis 20 years ago and those impacted by this condition will have a diagnosis sooner and easier. I also hope treatments become available in the United States.


Where to go for more info:



This post was edited on July 14, 2019.

The Evolution of the Job Description

Does anyone know when jobs became ‘fast paced”? I refuse to believe that there are not more methodical jobs out there, but they have been misrepresented in order to appeal to those who need a fast pace.

I would like to see more of a job description like this:


A person who is capable of learning, with analytical skills and internal motivation to ethically and morally support our organization that is ethical and moral and lawful in all operations and will treat all employees fairly and equitably.

The best candidate is:

  • methodical in approach to the work and who does not too quickly come to a conclusion. Our company pace is geared to allowing time to perform in this manner.
  • a person who is intelligent enough to learn our proprietary software that pretty much does what everybody else’s proprietary software does. If you need time to learn our software, you will be trained at a reasonable pace because we have enough staff to comfortably carry out our tasks.
  • a person who can think ahead so that there are no surprises and no emergencies. Again, our company is adequately staffed.

What is driving the fast pace?

Have we started making our workplaces fast paced in order to keep people?

Have faced-paced people evolved our workplaces so that more and more are becoming fast paced?

I will consider applying to your faced-paced job if you can explain to me, based on metrics, why your job/company is fast-paced and how that pace impacts your ability to be competitive and successful.

If you advertise as a fast-paced company and you really are not, then you will lose employees who thrive in and want to work in that type of an environment.

On July 10, 2019, I performed a job search on a popular job search site and got the following results:

  • Number of jobs with the words ‘fast paced’ in the search criteria: 294.526
  • Number of jobs with ‘methodical’ in the search criteria: 3032
  • Number of jobs with the word ‘methodical’ in the description: 1

I didn’t look at the descriptions of all the results, but I did look at about 10 on the fast-paced list and four on the methodical list. Because only one job had methodical in the description, I am guessing the word search found the 3000+ based on key word association (1).

Think about this.

Would you want your surgeon to be faced paced or methodical? What about the person who processes your paycheck? Building your house? Patrolling your neighborhood?

Computers have made jobs faster, but humans are limited by how quickly they can move their bodies through space. I think there is probably an upper limiting factor to that.

Who exactly needs a job to be fast paced?

That’s it. I have tired of deciding when to hyphenate.



  1. Jonathan Strickland & John Donovan “How Google Works” 30 May 2019. <; 14 July 2019



Porphyria can be inherited or acquired. There are several types of porphyria.


Treatment varies based on the type of porphyria


For those who have porphyria, or for those who support them, the following are sources of additional information.